What do you want?

OMG!! I did it,i made it to my blog..i am finally here after along hiatus. Its hard to believe this!! Well of course its not that m here on my own. As always, as it has been for me thers gotta be someone pushing me from behind (thnx vish). And fortunately, today i was not in any mood to do anything ...anything(if u got me...yeah this wuld be last thing i wuld do). So wateva i was into i hated it. I started this movie "Good will Hunting" featuring Matt Damon..i left it halfway...(hw can i do tht?) then i startd with Top Gear and i left it too(this is insane)...i turned to DC++...cldnt find it stimulating (total manic)...Music? NO....nt even Coldplay!!?? Something is wrong...really wrong!! You are sometimes in deep shit ...unable to figure out wat is it thats pestering u? You can't concentrate, can't sleep either...b'coz thats not what you want...you think...think...and think...Something is not going your way!! Well ... Its time...the Judgement time ...with ur colleages cracking GRE, some with a super-dream Job, some on their mission 'CAT'...others have got good acad...remaining ones are into GATE, well if some of them r still remaining they dont giv neyting a damn(f*** everything, sometimes i love that)...so everyone is into something...and then its you in middle of nowhere...trying to figure out what is it that suits u...? what am i good at? wht???? pardon me...what am i good at?...umm...chattin? cs ? aoe? movies? series? does that help?...wtf...good at nothing??? dat cnt be...what did i do all these years? and then its call from ur dwelling ..u ans.."everything is going jus fine...justttt fynnnnn!!". And the moment the call is off...everything is pitch dark again...this is scary... well this bugs a lot..and its gets worse...during exams!! You have no option then ...but study. Contrary to this, in my case if i am not into it...that means am NOT into it...screw EGGzam. I wonder whether this happens only to me..?!?

But then hard times do come... and thanx to them tht we enjoy so sky-highly... wen its happy times!!

" A ship in a dockyard faces low storm" ..bt sittin ideal isnt the option.. of course not in today's world. So what you gonna do?? ask your mom...?? then you think its childish...you hav got to make ur own decision.

C'mon give yourself a break, have a coffee, a breath of fresh air and solitude. Think of times when you were most productive...its still in u...the zeal..the dedication.. the will...only the matter is its all a bit rusted....needs lil brushing and polishing...(some senior had rightly said to me, a freshman then...."within three years of engineering, you ll be as dumb as u have never been b4.."i smirked..thinking him as gauche) Well, its the System u know. Leave it...i don't want to get myself started on that....else this wuld turn into a rant.

But you know, its the same friends i mentioned earlier who serve as real motivators in these times...the difference is of the attitude you take to look at them...its them who'll take you to shore....out of this dilemma...and then its just the Apex and you...(do i sound lyk Arjuna?..lol)

So, moral of the story...fill the form for every exam your friends give...!! lolzz

I have always found the answer to the above question in my friends. A simple thanks won't be good quid pro quo.

I started this post with a title 'Absurdity'..and it eventually turned out to be 'What do u want?' after i finished jotting it down ..i found it more apt.I guess this is the way to write a blog, u vomit wateva u want and then u name it. I should have written this one long ago. Anyway, its never so late!! ;)